Saturday, February 18, 2012 by eloramariel
Recently, I’ve been proud of myself. I did things I usually said I wouldn’t … or at least wouldn’t dared to. Even if the results are disappointing in the end, I guess the phrase “at least I did it” really work. The fact that I tried something about it and I didn’t just wait around, waiting for a miracle, is definitely a great feeling.
…But to remain optimistic about situations… well, I guess I need to work on that. Other than that, I think I can still pull off a genuinely looking smile if needed.
So you see, I won’t be able to graduate with my batch but that’s okay. I regret it a little but hey, a decision was already made and there’s no point looking back in the past and thinking about “what ifs“. I’m a bit down about my current job too, which I guess is why I dread going to work every time. My family’s having problems of their own and I’m stressed out by that too.
All in all, I think my life’s a bit of a wreck right now. It can be solved though but it takes lots of patience and hard work, not procrastinations. All of which I lack in. HAIIYAAAA
I’m sure I can do it. I give myself till June to accomplish what I’m about to list:
1) Lose 5kg
2) Get a good paying job
3) Save up
4) Move out
5) Back to School
Aja Aja !
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Tuesday, February 14, 2012 by eloramariel
So how has my life been for the remaining 20 years? Hectic. Mundane. Roller Coaster rides. Stressful. Wasted. And the list just really goes on.. The thing about me is that I can be a risk taker, and yet at the same time I can be a coward and just run away from everything that could possibly either benefit or harm me. So in a way it can be both a good and bad thing.
I have good friends in my life that has never really abandoned me in a way. Be it that they’re there for me for fun, or for the bad times.
The only regret I have is really not working hard for what I want. To give up halfway when the going gets tough. But hey, life, I learn the harsh or worst way possible. The one way that really strikes the heart and makes me feel like I want to hit the restart button in my life.
Probably I’ll try and work harder on what I really want. Probably…
So for the fun of it, here’s 20 things I did:
- Not get drunk till the end of the year as promised. (I’m a drunkard so.. heh)
- Get a night job (which I guess didn’t really work out)
- Sticked to a job for half a year
- Be more financially independent
- Got my own website up again
- Stopped going to school (okay, I regret it)
- Gone to Malaysia with my friends, alone. In fact, gone overseas with my friends alone!
- Date around
- Lost 8kg permanently
- Got better at guitar
… Okay, I guess I still suck at this whole blogging thing because I’ve run out of things to talk about. Or maybe my life just isn’t that accomplished. teehee
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Tuesday, January 24, 2012 by eloramariel
It’s only January and yet I feel like the bad luck that was predicted for both my Chinese horoscope and zodiac signs are doing their job quite nicely, unfortunately.
Since I made the decision about School, I wanted to be more productive with my life so I made a bucket list. The problem with me being a blogger is that halfway into the post, I feel really lazy to even type anything out. So my posts always ends up real short.
Well, a bucket list is usually very long anyway, so here’s the major ones that has to be crossed out before this year ends:
- Never Fall in Love, 2012
- Get life in Shape
- Travel to a country with Best Friend.
Basically those three. I’m coming off as a rather pretty boring person eh? I know. I’m trying to find out why as well. So apart from all these I said, Toodledoo!
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Monday, January 2, 2012 by eloramariel
It’s been long since I last blogged something about my life. Isn’t it ironic? The reason I made this site was because of my passion and hello, I’m back to the same place I was, years ago. I really need to have some sort of discipline and stop procrastinating too much in life. I’ll be turning 21 this year, I’m not growing any younger.
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